Finding Peace in the Night's Storm

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. James 1:5


I sat across from yet another doctor giving me an explanation for the pain and discomfort I have been suffering for months. I felt myself rushing trying to get to the end of the visit. I was so tired of being probed, touched, pushed and pulled. I must have had a distinguished look on my face when the doctor said, “How are you feeling right now?” I was trying to find the words, yet none of the thoughts in my head would stop long enough for me to verbalize what I was feeling, thinking.

I was completely numb and couldn’t rap my head around more than one issue going on at a time! Then I noticed something about how my physical body was reacting. There are times when I feel stress or anxious, I can feel my heart racing and I become irritable. Yet, this time was different. I recognize that I couldn’t capture my thoughts because most of the time that is my reality! Lol That’s one of the reasons I write.

But all morning I was singing and praising. I knew the Lord was with me. I was assured he had heard my cries in the night. I was certain he wiped my tears at the altar. And I was certain he said, “Trust me!” while in the prayer circle. Therefore, sitting across from the doctor, my mind was blank and full at the same time. The words had wings flying in head. I felt peace.

I could hear the angel the Lord sent to me after Bible study saying, “You are whole”. I have owned those words. “I am whole! I am whole! I am whole!

When sleepless nights seem to reign in my life, I try to focus my mind on something in nature that makes me feel close to the Lord. The think about long nature walks in the woods, making note of smells of the wood and the earth, the sight of tall trees; some broken some standing strong. I am in awe of how some leaves are smooth and others have rough veins throughout. There are some wild flowers and berries that are edible. Note the location. I may need them. And lastly, in my mind’s eye I can hear the glorious sounds of the birds while dashing from limb to limb.

Nature connects me with God. And closing my eyes takes me to a place where I can commune with Him and find peace.